Apologies

A brand new year,
A brand new start,
Is what make things right,
I assumed;

Plenty of scars - both physical and emotional
Still attached to myself
And refused to leave me in solitude
As much as I tried;

Foolishly I believed this existence is all but doomed,
I have been trying to change all that happened
Mistakes I have made plenty
And I was trying to apologise for all that happened;

I was trying to seek forgiveness from everyone else,
For things that I did not even do,
I was being naive, I was being misled,
Into believing I am the problem;

As the new year dawned, a new thinking arose within me,
Why should I change for others?
Why should I be what others want me to be?
Instead of seeking forgiveness from others, I decided to seek in within;

Apologies for letting my dreams down,
Apologies for letting myself down infront of the world,
Apologies for not accepting what I really am,
And finally, apologies for the subtle messages that was sent from within;

A brand new confidence sprang forth within me,
A belief that I am the supreme being,
Irrespective of what the world says,
I am what I am and try as much,
I cannot pleased anyone and I need not change for anyone.